Allah Akan Mengganti Yang Lebih Baik

People would ask me how I can still smile , how I still have the heart to forgive someone so easily when they tore my life apart .

There's this book that I bought out of the blue . About two weeks ago , I had this urge to just browse through the agama section in a bookstore at curve , and I saw this thick tiny yellow book , the title was " JANGAN BERSEDIH " . I bought it , and it changed my view about certain things in life .

It's pointless being upset over something that doesn't go the way we plan . It's pointless to fight over something that goes wrong . It's just pointless .

I was fine for the past 3 weeks , and I'll stay that way , because I know Allah is watching over me . I smile everytime I get hurt inside . I'm not physcho , I'm just lucky that my condition right now ain't as bad as other people who are suffering worse .

" Kau akan melihat sendiri keceriaan wajahnya
Jika kau bertemu dengannya .
Seolah kau memberikan kepadanya sesuatu
Yang kau sendiri memerlukannya "

Astagh Firullaa Hal'aziim

My roommate , she's form 2 , and she katam almost 4 times already , and she knows so many doa I never knew . She was one of the reason why I started praying , 5 times a day .

The reason I left Taman S.E.A was not only to succeed in sports , but in life too .
I knew that my life was going to change , things wouldn't be the same , friends wouldn't be there for you like you planned they would . In the end , I survived .
I have this sudden thing in me , where I would get up early in the morning for subuh , no matter how tired I am , I still manage to pray first .

My friends from my old school would ask me how life was at my new school , they thought I wasn't gonna survive , and they thought I didn't like studying there . Truth is , I feel so much more peaceful there and I don't know why . I love my school .

On Friday , I woke up right at 2 o'clock in the morning , I couldn't sleep back so I prayed sunat hajat , because I had problem with health , in the afternoon , what I prayed for came true . Allah was listening to me . That morning itself , I manage to hafal and understand the meaning of Ayat Kursi in about 20 to 30 minutes .
Two weeks before , I hafal Doa Qunut .

Yes , I'm 16 and I just started memorizing these , and I'm back to reading iqrak 3 , but at least I'm trying to know my own religion . I make mistakes , and I finally realized it wasn't late to go on the right track .

Ya Allah , tunjuklah jalan yang benar .