Have you ever asked someone on their first point of view about you ? I did , and what tremendous views I got .
They say I have the face of a proud peacock , too proud to talk or to say hi to people . Thing is I think I'm not . I'm more of a shy and scared person instead of being over the moon with myself . It's not that I like isolating myself from the crowds . It's just that it's more safe that way .
My sister keeps on saying that I have so much confidence in me . To be honest , I can barely walk with my face upright , it's always facing the ground . I bet no one notices that huh ? Yeah .. they're so judgemental .
What about saying hi ? Well , when my fears starts accumulating inside , my eyes starts looking down when the person I know walks pass me . I don't say " hi " because I'm too afraid of not getting that same respond back . Then my ego steps in indicating that if that person doesn't say hi or smile back at you , your reputation's ruined .
That's just it , the feeling of fear and egoness is my big problem . It's what keeps me isolated from the world .
I like to do my own thing by my own . I dislike people interfering with what I'm doing . But then again , I hate being left out , hate being so alone .. I just hate that .
Yesterday , when some guy opened the door for me and I said thank you . He thought I didn't because as usual , my face was looking at the ground again . I gotta stop doing that . Mum said I used to be this happy-go-lucky child . What happened to that child ?
The older I get , the less spirit I have in me . Just like a walking zombie with no soul .
Wish I was a child again with no broken dreams .
They say I have the face of a proud peacock , too proud to talk or to say hi to people . Thing is I think I'm not . I'm more of a shy and scared person instead of being over the moon with myself . It's not that I like isolating myself from the crowds . It's just that it's more safe that way .
My sister keeps on saying that I have so much confidence in me . To be honest , I can barely walk with my face upright , it's always facing the ground . I bet no one notices that huh ? Yeah .. they're so judgemental .
What about saying hi ? Well , when my fears starts accumulating inside , my eyes starts looking down when the person I know walks pass me . I don't say " hi " because I'm too afraid of not getting that same respond back . Then my ego steps in indicating that if that person doesn't say hi or smile back at you , your reputation's ruined .
That's just it , the feeling of fear and egoness is my big problem . It's what keeps me isolated from the world .
I like to do my own thing by my own . I dislike people interfering with what I'm doing . But then again , I hate being left out , hate being so alone .. I just hate that .
Yesterday , when some guy opened the door for me and I said thank you . He thought I didn't because as usual , my face was looking at the ground again . I gotta stop doing that . Mum said I used to be this happy-go-lucky child . What happened to that child ?
The older I get , the less spirit I have in me . Just like a walking zombie with no soul .
Wish I was a child again with no broken dreams .
