Tuesday, November 16, 2010

My Brother


My brother is one of the most talkative person you will ever meet . I used to disrespect his thoughts and ill treat his feelings . 'Cause I thought , he was annoying and selfish .

And then everything changed when he felt sick . He was attacked by some virus and had a really high fever . Late at night he'd start crying and screaming , having really bad nightmares and illusions . He'd talk really weirdly , couldn't pronounce the words right . It's like his body was there , but his soul wasn't .

Last night , made me cry . For the first time in my 15 years of life , it hit me . That thought of loosing someone you love is really painful , especially when you didn't treat them right .

He got up and started crying saying that he had nightmares about him being so small and everything around him was big . Every step he took the floors would explode . When my mum pointed at me and asked him who I was , he said : " Kakak , she's poking her eyes , I don't know who's that "
My mum asked him again , and he said I was his sister , but he didn't know my name . I started tearing , my mum started shivering 'cause she thought she lost him . Only then he remembered everyone . He actually forgot my mum , all of us .

Now his okay , he can count again , greet all of us by name , and running around like normal . I missed him being really annoying . And at some point , when he was not with us for that particular moment , apart of me just died . Only then I realized how my life would be so empty if he went away for a very long time .

And I'm lucky his cured , 'cause the pain he feels is my pain .

PS , I you , Faris Adam

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I ♥ You Mommay


When you were inside your mom’s tummy,your mom suffered the pain that you gave to her,and you thanked her by kicking her all day long.

When you were 1 year old,your mom celebrated the first birthday of you,you thanked her by crying all day long.


When you were 2 years old,your mom started teaching you how to talk,you thanked her by saying ummmumumumumamamama.


When you were 3 years old,your mom brought you to the park,you thanked her by running around the pond, and chasing the birds.


When you were 4 years old,your mom bought you some toys,you thanked her by breaking the toys on the next day.


When you were 5 years old,your mom bought you a story book and read it to you,you thanked her by ripping it piece to piece.


When you were 6 years old,your mom sent you to the kindergarten, so that you can start making friends,but you thanked her by fighting with your classmate.


When you were 7 years old,your mom made you a very nice lunch for the first day of school,you thanked her by throwing your foods around the class.


When you were 8 years old,your mom handed you an ice cream,you thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.


When you were 9 years old,she paid for piano lessons,you thanked her by never even bothering to practice.


When you were 10 years old she drove you all day,from soccer to football to one birthday party after another,you thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.


When you were 11 years old,she took you and your friends to the movies,you thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.


When you were 12 years old,she warned you not to watch certain TV shows,you thanked her by waiting until she left the house.


When you were 13 years old,she suggested a haircut that was becoming,you thanked her by telling her she had no taste.


When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp,you thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.


When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug,you thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.


When you were 16, she taught you how to handle boys,you thanked her by being with your boyfriend more.


When you were 17, she was expecting an important call,you thanked her by being on the phone all night.


When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation,you thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.


When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition,drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends.


When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.


When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.


And then, one day, she quietly died.And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder in YOUR HEART..


Parents are still human beings . They make mistakes too .

But as a child , we have to forgive them . That's what they would do if we made mistakes .

I think the new generation's been polluted . HAHA , like seriously . We're selfish and uncaring . We only care about ourselves , well most among us are like that . But , imagine the pain and struggles they had to go through just to bring us up healthily and happily . Why can't we do the same once we're big enough ?

They like to shout and tell us what to do . Of course we may not like it , but teenagers most of all , need to understand they like to control us " Teen " because they want a bright future for us . Telling us to study all day long so that we'd live our dream faster . They shout because they care .

This is sad! We never appreciate them . I love you mother.

Are you one of them

PS , Appreciate them before it's too late .

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Summary : Athletics



Everyone in this world wants to be a winner .But half of them don't know the steps of becoming one .
How you say ?
Well

Firstly , you gotta go training more frequently .
Don't wait for someone else to tell you what to do , you're not a baby anymore .

Secondly , start thinking positive , fight against your negative thoughts .
Ain't worth it at all . Don't keep saying that you won't make it through , you won't go no where .
because :
  1. It's annoying
  2. It pisses people off
  3. No one can help , but yourself .
The attitude , when someone says do something , you do it . Don't just suddenly be mad at the whole world just because you're tired , everyone else feels the same way too .

The ones who has second thoughts about quitting athletics . We talked to you , tell you not to quite , yet we fail sometimes . So if you're planning on quitting , tell sir the truth rather than just ignore the whole team . We're like the second family in an athletes life .

I don't understand how a person could write or say : " I ATHLETICS " when they barely show up for training . We all have exams in life , but it doesn't give us a reason to stop .

When at training , focus at what you're doing , and stop chit-chatting . Do that after the work-out is done . It doesn't kill nobody , I've tried .

Don't think , feel .

Even if your whole gang aren't going for training , does that mean you don't have to go too ?
If it is , when your friend loses , do you lose too ?
Obviously not .

So don't come for the sake of friends , do it for your sake . 'Cause your the one who's gonna represent Taman S.E.A . You're the one who's gonna run, jump or throw at the track or field . And if you win , You're the one who gets to take the medal home , specially made for you only , don't have to share it with anyone .

Don't just say you wanna be a winner , and sleep at home . Prove that you wanna be one by pushing yourself towards difficulty .

Sir gave his all . He put us his first priority . Don't get mad when he starts shouting . Be happy , 'cause he cares about you , and he wants you to improve . He shouts because he knows your capable to go further . Think about him when you're about to do something stupid .


PS , Think twice before quitting

Thursday, June 17, 2010


BOO ! Heheh , Hi Stalkers

Saturday, May 22, 2010

MSSM ♥











One of he BIGGEST competition in my life . Even though I blew it off , I didn't regret . With an injured sheen , I gave it all . I did my best , and I don't wanna complain .

At the height 149cm , I dropped . I got 6th placing in the whole of Malaysia . After that , my mind was completely blank . I couldn't even figure out where the hell I put my purse .

Know what it's like when it's your turn to jump ?

When you're focusing at the bar , and the whole stadium hushes just to watch you jump is where the spirit to jump comes , but at the same time your nervous 'cause you start to think if you can jump over or not , That's if , unless you've got confidence .

Once you've jumped over , and you passed that certain height , you're shoulders tend to feel lighter , and then your whole team starts cheering for you . And you know you did it .

MSSM this year was in Johor Bahru , and I met a lot of people , and made great new friends :
  • Eu-Nise
  • Eugenia
  • Savinder ( SPENDER )
  • Meor
  • Akmal
  • Ong
  • Gautham
  • Black ( Sorry , I dont know you're name )
Savinder Khor :

a.k.a SPENDER

The first time I saw her , I thought she was a malay , when she's actually a Singh .
No matter , she's form 1 , and has lots of confidence in her that she can do things she intend to achieve . 4x400m , her team was gonna loose in the semi-final , but she pushed all she's got and got 1st and made it through Finals . I admire her the most there .

Even though she slaps me on the face really hard nearly everyday , I know I needed it . She made me realize that it's time for me to wake up from my dreamland and start doing something if I want something .

I cried when I had to leave her alone , and right now , I miss her a lot . Wish I could see her again

Wish the whole Selangor Team is studying in Taman S.E.A , so we don't have to be apart .

Her word that cracks everyone up :
Tido mati -> Sleep Dead


PS , Spender , Sye rndu awk

Saturday, March 27, 2010

MSSD ♥


4x100m relay team
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4x4oom relay team
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Monday - 4x100 ( Semi Final )
- High jump

Tuesday - Triple Jump

Wednesday - 4x100 ( Final )

Thursday - 2oom
- 4x400 ( Semi Final )
- 4x400 ( Final )



Oh dear god , please help my mind to be ready on Monday :/
Please give me all the confidence and please please let me be aggressive for that whole week :(


PS , Please let me pass

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Pekan , Pahang ♥

I went to Pekan for the second time , only did I realize that the houses there were very small .

I complain on the way there . I complain that the weather there is hot , the places there are too small and it's not comfortable .. at all .

But the people there were very nice and friendly , the old folks there were really tiny and cute , and they still have the urge to get up early in the morning to feed the chickens , sheeps and cows etc .
While I mumble about waking up 5 in the morning just to go to school , and I'm only 15 .

The whole time I've been there , not one complain about their lifestyle . They were all happy and smiles everywhere . While PJ is full stress and not many can get along well .

I complain about my house being too small that there were 6 people living in one tiny house wheres over there , 15 people living in one small wooden house .
Only now , I found out that I was one of the lucky ones who had a comfortable place to live in .


Quote :
I complain about the place I was living until I saw a homeless man .




PS , Be Grateful With What You Have

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

The Mummy Invaded My Dreamland ♥



Last night , I dreamed that I was in a war with the mummies . And as usual , I'm blur
I think , I killed some of my army too . I couldn't different shape between my army and the mummies army 'cause they all look dead to me .

I also think I died a few times , 'cause I remembered being poked with a spear right in the stomach . And for some reason , I have No Idea how Wei Hao got into the dream .

Wei Hao , I'm sorry , but you died when you tried holding a spear , you were too blur that one of the mummies ate you :P
And of course , we won .
I couldn't stop saying sorry to the mummies , 'cause I kept screaming at them , that their head exploded into tiny bits .

Out of nowhere , I teleported into a bus , and it crashed into a drain ..
And I woke up .
Not a good dream to dream about eyh ? ;)


PS , I think I watch too many Mummy movies

I Hate You Dear Orange ! ♥



I had very bad experience with this fruit up there . I don't even wanna think about it .
Disturbing yet embarrassing .


Mental Note : Never eat too many Oranges


PS , I hate you Orange ♥

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

The Best Damn Thing ♥






January 5th 2010
  1. Sabrina Chan
  2. Mohammad Zakwan Mansur
  3. Zurean Elisa
  4. Cheng Hui Yan
  5. Mommy
  6. Annisa
  7. Firzad Emir
  8. Ian Abel
  9. Mark Soomaran
  10. Daddy
  11. Ain Sulaiman
  12. Celine Jing Xin
  13. Nik Nur Iman
  14. Loo Ee Vern
  15. Jayse Lee Xiang Yee
  16. Wan Yun Anne
  17. Thaarah Ganesan
  18. Priya Dhaarshini
  19. Ooi Lay Tee
  20. Tricia Pang
  21. Zurean Elisa
  22. Zurene Hee
  23. Aiman Raihan
  24. Lai Wei Xiang
  25. Kimberley Koh
  26. Loo Chee Cheng
  27. Iain Liew
  28. Kavin Ananth
  29. Lim Jun Wai
  30. Teo Guo Qiang
  31. Sybil Seok
  32. Amar Smajic
  33. Amin Smajic
  34. Azam Smajic
  35. All my Auntie's & Uncles :)
  36. Jia Vern
  37. Hani Hazeera
  38. Siow Lau Shi ;)
  39. Rebecca Ong
  40. Arvin
  41. Michelle Lum
  42. Acker Kwan
  43. Yeoh Der Cherng
  44. Cynthia Niam
  45. Jason Tan
  46. Vanessa
  47. Amirul Rashide
  48. Anngie Leong
  49. Marianne Ho
  50. Gan Ying
  51. Divya Rajah
  52. Yip Joanne
  53. Kevin
  54. Nureen Hannah
  55. Pang Li Anne
  56. Nisa Mus
  57. Phuah Xin Li
  58. Kyrie Azry
  59. Ryan Tuck Yan
  60. Hanisha Antikainen
  61. Lee Kerwiin
  62. Hazirah Abdullah
  63. Ngau Li Yin
  64. Siti Aida Aminuddin
  65. Gabrielle Lee
  66. Nadra Zunkifli
  67. Michelle Yeoh
  68. Lelaina Ananthan
  69. Jason Cheah
  70. Nur Syafila Alias
  71. Estelle Kot
  72. Loo Suk Munn
  73. Brenda
  74. Nicholas Hong Leng Kee
  75. Aaron Ong
  76. Ashley Ong
  77. Vivek Sharma
  78. Tg. Ahmad Faisal
  79. Duzbionjit Singh
  80. Claire Aw Yong
  81. Bennett Vinnie
  82. Jun Wei
  83. Charmaine Yap
  84. Colin Tan
  85. Zurianna
Hui yan , Ian , Mark , Kimberley wished me through message . My cousin , Annisa and Firzad , wished me through phone . And the rest through Facebook .
My mum jumped on me while I was sleeping and almost gave me a heart-attack , to wish me .

Firzad , called right at 12am to wish me and gave me his Hoodie as a gift .

Zurean , Thaarah and Kimberley gave me presents ^.^

Ee vern , Zurean , Kimberley , Lay Tee , Michelle , Gan Ying , Iain , Jun Wai , Tricia , Hui Yan , Thaarah , Yun Anne and Priya made a Birthday Card for me , And it's so sweet and cute ♥

Thank you :)

Ps , You shine my day