My brother is one of the most talkative person you will ever meet . I used to disrespect his thoughts and ill treat his feelings . 'Cause I thought , he was annoying and selfish .
And then everything changed when he felt sick . He was attacked by some virus and had a really high fever . Late at night he'd start crying and screaming , having really bad nightmares and illusions . He'd talk really weirdly , couldn't pronounce the words right . It's like his body was there , but his soul wasn't .
Last night , made me cry . For the first time in my 15 years of life , it hit me . That thought of loosing someone you love is really painful , especially when you didn't treat them right .
He got up and started crying saying that he had nightmares about him being so small and everything around him was big . Every step he took the floors would explode . When my mum pointed at me and asked him who I was , he said : " Kakak , she's poking her eyes , I don't know who's that "
My mum asked him again , and he said I was his sister , but he didn't know my name . I started tearing , my mum started shivering 'cause she thought she lost him . Only then he remembered everyone . He actually forgot my mum , all of us .
Now his okay , he can count again , greet all of us by name , and running around like normal . I missed him being really annoying . And at some point , when he was not with us for that particular moment , apart of me just died . Only then I realized how my life would be so empty if he went away for a very long time .
And I'm lucky his cured , 'cause the pain he feels is my pain .
PS , I ♥ you , Faris Adam
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